Felling down

I haven't felt this down in a while. I found out today that my insurance policy most likely does not cover gastric bypass.

I haven't wanted to sit down and cry like this in a very long time. The hope that I would have the surgery soon is one of the biggest things that helps me keep my spirits up.

I don't know what to do. I can't afford $20,000 out-of-pocket. I guess one of my only options now is to look into hospitals in India or Mexico.